It's funny how lonely you can be sometimes.
I really wish I was different. Like the girls who don't have to try so hard. Now I just feel sad and alone, and I wish you were here. Not because you could hear and heal me, but because if you were I wouldn't be an abandonic pathetic and suckatlovingpeople woman.
I feel destroy and broken into million pieces by every man, every person in my life. I feel like I don't belong anywhere. Like I have no place to go or to be.
I constantly feel abandonned, disapointed, decived, guilty, angry, sad, alone. And I have no fucking idea who to talk to. Because she's gone and he don't understand me.
I feel judged.
Replacable.
Lame.
Fake.
And I don't want to be like this again.
Sometimes I just scream in my car because I'm desperate.
Can we go back and start over one more time please ?
I want it to work but I know it can't.
I was fine when I stopped feeling anything.
